Mrs Purposed

Everything that I have been through I realized that I stopped dreaming and I allowed myself to become fine with being in the same place. I thought that I was okay but then I became extremely restless and I finally know why. It was  because I was not actively pursuing my passion. I was feeling unfulfilled with every-single-thing. I can make my own hours at my job, my hair has been behaving for the most part (I'm natural), my bills are paid etc. but that did not stop the emotional roller coaster that I was constantly on. I did not realize how bad I was emotionally until I starting crying one day. Anyone who knows me knows that I'm not an overly sensitive person I try to take everything with a grain of salt and look at the positive. But one day I just started crying because I was overwhelmed and I was not pleased with anything. I mean nothing! It could be perfect weather outside, I have a perfect twist out, my children weren't bugging me and I still was unfulfilled. The hu...

I have a LOT of goals and I plan to achieve every single one. The issue is that I had too many mental obstacles in the way. I had a few physical ones i.e. fatigue and just pure laziness. But the mental obstacles were and sometimes still are a challenge to get through. First feeling like my time has passed to follow my dreams, then feeling inadequate, then feeling like maybe I did not really want to write. All of those things were distractions from what I am really suppose to be doing and I have decided to not let it affect me anymore. So whatever I have to do in order to get back on track and I am. Case in point at the park writing. It is very relaxing although my back is hurting a little bit because of the way that I am sitting. But the nice back drop, the breeze that is lightly blowing, and the sound of rushing water is very, very nice. I have to get out of my head and my own way and really pursue my dreams so that I can move in the direction that I feel that I need to be in. Which...

So I had something else that I was going to write about today but I'm tired so I decided to write about pushing through tiredness. Right now I need to be asleep however I am up because I made a commitment to write at least two hundred fifty words each day. I remember being so tired one day that I came in the house and literally passed out. Someone could have came into my house and I would not have known anything; that's how tired I was. I'm tired now, but its not to the point of exhaustion. I just feel what would be a normal working day tired. Lately pushing through the tiredness that I feel is more of a mental challenge than a physical one. If my body  is tired then most times I can find some energy and recharge enough to get through the day. But if my mind along with my body is tired then its lights out and I feel as though I cannot function. To combat this I HAVE to have a plan. Because when I am all over the place I get overwhelmed and upset which results into me beco...

I’m back, FINALLY! Hopefully this time I wont stop writing and posting. My work schedule had gotten ridiculous and at times I was working six and a half days a week. But then it leveled out when I was able to hire someone else. Then that did not work out. So I had to hire another person and then not only train them but two other people as well. So I was extremely tired along  with insecurities attacking me. Well let me rephrase that; I allowed myself to become overwhelmed by my insecurities. I love to write and I know that is one of my passions that I am to pursue. But negative thoughts can really hinder you. The crazy part is that my negative thoughts were masked as humbleness. Anytime I would think Hey my writing could really elevate me and not only become profitable but also help others . A thought of Why write for profit you should only do so to help others. I would defeat that thought. Then thoughts of How can you help others when you need so much help . I had so many back a...