Restless

Everything that I have been through I realized that I stopped dreaming and I allowed myself to become fine with being in the same place. I thought that I was okay but then I became extremely restless and I finally know why. It was  because I was not actively pursuing my passion. I was feeling unfulfilled with every-single-thing. I can make my own hours at my job, my hair has been behaving for the most part (I'm natural), my bills are paid etc. but that did not stop the emotional roller coaster that I was constantly on.

I did not realize how bad I was emotionally until I starting crying one day. Anyone who knows me knows that I'm not an overly sensitive person I try to take everything with a grain of salt and look at the positive. But one day I just started crying because I was overwhelmed and I was not pleased with anything. I mean nothing! It could be perfect weather outside, I have a perfect twist out, my children weren't bugging me and I still was unfulfilled.

The hubs and I started talking and I realized that I desperately needed to pursue the gifts and talents that are within me or I would go crazy. Of course one of those passions include: Writing. So that is what I am doing, albeit, slowly but surely. And I am going to push and pursue until I see changes. And even with those changes I will continue to push.